My happiness is no longer

Once upon a time I used to be a very happy camper, loving life and taking it one day at a time. Till one day I gave my heart to someone. Now because of the way I feel about that person I feel like I am loosing my mind. Because of this I have lost my will, my motivation, my outlook, my being who I am. I sit and cry on occasion because of the way I feel. As I type this I am crying now. I try to use things that matter to me as an escape but the reality is that my reality out ways my fantasy thus i can never cheat my reality. Thus always reminded of my suffering. How can I over come when I have no help. How can. I think what has happen to me is that my emotions of love and caring have turned on me which has left me weak minded, gullible, and with no back bone. How do I come back from that. Now I find myself turning mean, and heart full of hate. I think one of my favorite movies has a meaning in it that NOW applies to me. "Hurt leads to pain, pain leads to anger, anger leads to the darkside of the force". I fear that I am a road in my life that could be negative because of the recent activities, Thus My hurt has lead to my pain, my pain is leading to my suffering, my suffering has made me a more angry person, and I think my anger will lead me to a dark part of my life. I remember once when I was a happy person, but now cause of love that is no more.

Eric Thorne,
Lord Anubus
AKA No longer The Ultimate BBW Lover

Strive for 2000 Follower (Celeb Status)

Ok to all my supporters and I guess fans (If I have fans). I am on a mission. I am on a mission to get 2000 followers before August 1st. I know It can happen because I know there are alot of people who would love to know whats up with SDE and TNS BBW Online Radio, and myself. So lets get to it. If have not start following me you can click the banner above to begib following me. If you have not joined yet, then go join then begin following me, Lord Anubus. Thank you in advance my supporters and fans.

Eric
AKA Lord Anubus/ The Ultimate BBW Lover

Ok question. Would you act like this if you were not the father?

I love this damn video cause its so funny. Would you guys act like this too? Well If I was being accused I might.

I Am Eric Woods

Check out the put I made at Agusta National at the Masters. Ok it was not the Masters and I was not at Agusta National, but I still am Eric Woods on this shot.

2 Ladies in the BBW Adult Industry That OWN 2009

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Yes For my Madden Nites

So since I am a true Madden Head. I decided to also blog about my online Madden 09 Career. I will update this every week giving you some kind of insight on , yeah, how good ya boy is doing. My goal is to win 300 games online before Madden 10 comes out. Right now my record stands at 218-182. I have piled up bad losses because of loss of connection, which gives automatic losses to the side that gets disconnected, I also will do some vids to show a lil of my skills. So all my fellow Madden Nites. Get at ya boy. If you want to play me on line you can reach me on XBOX 360 Gamer Tag: Lord AnVader. Just leave a message letting me know that you saw my post on my blog.

Eric

AKA Lord Anubus/ The Ultimate BBW Lover

Thanks to all that stood buy me.

I just want to take this time to thank all the ladies who stood by my side in my time of sorrow. I am going through a tough time right now and the love that you all sent me is just a bit of fuel to get me moving forward. I am still in a world of hurt and pain, but I learned that god did not just create one woman, he created many. And all though I know i am going to go through a period of comparing ladies to one that was once was, I believe in due time I will be allowed to see past that factor. I want to also give some individual shout outs to ladies who gave great words of encouragement. Platinum, Mz Waterfalls, LaChelle Marie, Ms Alotoftitties, Mz Booty, Super Star, Kristen, Sicilla Curves, Topaz Ladai, Monie, Strawberry, Lady Mahogany Fox, Stallion, Lady Spice, Thunder Katt, Big Lizz, Veronica Bottoms, and a plethora of other ladies (If I did not name you please do not be upset). From the bottom of my heart thank you. Your words will carry me on my road to my heart healing.

RIP To Michael Jackson (Jacko)

RIP To the Greatest Entertainer EVERRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

OK People..Lets not start this.

Ok people. Lets get one thing straight. One I know the haters are glad that BootyLicious and I are broke up, so congrats you all have your wish, two I know those who support me are looking out for me, and three I cant move on if you email me something that she has written in a blog.

POSTED BY MS BOOTYLICIOUS Hello to all my Family, Friends, And FansWell i want to start this blog off by saying THANK YOU to all my fans, friends and family that have supported me throughout my Journey... Anywho i have a much bigger problem on my hands....Im not one to have my business in the streets so i will make this brief. As many of you know Lord Anubus (Eric)and I (Ms. BootyLicious) WERE an item. Over the past couple of weeks i've gotten tons of emails from different men and women accusing me of alot of different things...And the purpose of this blog is to clear all this HE Say SHE say BS up....Lord Anubus and i ARE NOT an item anymore....I have expressed this to him many of times... (For the ladies who had negative stuff to say about the situation) 1st: NOBODYS GOING TO PUT THEIR HANDS ON ME (thats a fact)2nd:I dont have Lord anubus acting any kind of way...He choses to be this way...AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST:Anybody that knows me knows that i am a good woman and that F**kin over people is not my thing..Hopefully this blog cleared up alot of the rumors that were going on.. Oh and this blog wasnt posted to make Lord Anubus look like an ass either...Although we are no longer together he is still a GREAT man and SDE rocks...Toodles......

Yes I still love her, and those are kind words which she put at the end. But what concerns me is that "NOBODYS GOING TO PUT THEIR HANDS ON ME" bit. Look people we are all adults and I am not an advocate of violence. I appreciate the love. But there is no need for violence or anyone putting hands on anyone. She too is also a very sweet woman and she is probably the best in the adult industry and has many years of big biz in the business. But people please do not send me anymore emails about what she wrote in a blog and please do not threaten her.

Much love,

Eric

Lord Anubus/ The Ultimate BBW Lover

My First Post (Lord Anubus)

Hello to all who are following me on my new blog. I think I have a lot to offer and to share with all in the world. Those who know me know I am a kind a great guy and would do for anybody when I can if I can. I try to be nice, chordal, polite, and mind my manors (cause that's the way I was raised). when I fall in love, I fall in love hard. I understand that I am not perfect by any means necessary and do not try to be. I love those who love me back and walk away from controversy, and those who like to "pic fights". I try to be a good guy. So please as you read this blog please keep an open mind cause I have a lot to share with my supporters friends, and family.

Much Love,
Eric
Lord Anubus/ Ultimate BBW Lover.