Lust In Red

She wore that cute red min dress that I love. Red as an apple, and sheer as nylon curtain. thighs thick as hell, make -up placed just right, glowing red lip stick to match the dress. Both of us in the kitchen drunk out of our minds and heart beating cause lust has took over our soul. She looked at me with her hazel brown eyes and said to me "Kiss my lips". As I leaned to do so she put her index finger to my lips and waved it. She leaned from off the kitchen counter and slowly removed her red nylon panties, knocked over everything on the kitchen counter, then hopped on top of the counter slowly. As she leaned back on against the counter wall, she fingered me to come to her. She grabbed my face and gave me the most sensual soft kiss a woman could ever then she slowly guided my head in between her thighs. The sent between her pretty big thighs was a like a rose smell from the wild. As I put begin to tongue kiss her vagina, she gave a small shimmer and moan. The slightest touch of my breathe against her thick lips was making her tingle with pleasure. She grabbed the back of my head as to push it forward. That taste of her sweet love box was gratifying. As I moved my tongue in a rapid motion she begin to grab my head even harder, moaning into a very sensual seduction. Enjoying the moment I begin to wrap my arms around her legs and really dig deep into giving her oral pleasure. This is what she wanted. My warm, wet mouth tongue kissing her sweet tasting vagina. Sliding my tongue in and out, moving it up and down, facial lips to vagina wall, she begin to get louder and louder with her moans. After the 14th minute straight she begin to let out this rageous moan. "Im Cummin, Im Cummin" she yelled. "Don't Stop" as she grabbed my head with both hands. As she began her climatic rush she held my head tighter and tighter letting out one huge moan, a moan so loud that she could be over heard by neighbors three doors down. As she settled herself she raised my head up and guided it back to her face and begin to kiss me like she had just missed me. Satisfied with her pleasure I smiled. I watched as she jumped off the kitchen counter, put her nylon panties back on, adjust herself and start to walk to the door. As she got half way to my door she turned around and walked back, gave me a kiss on the cheek and said to me, "I will not tell my sister what happened tonight if you do not".

Poem Dedicated to Crystal Kama Sutra Wallace

Dedicated to Ms Kama Sutra

Unsuspecting thoughts as I prance down the stairs humming a tune.
A tune of happiness, that makes the heart fonder, that something was coming soon.
As the suns reflection beams of the full moon and slices through the nite,
Its flash of subtle rays shines a angelic and heavenly spotlight.
Wow it was her, it was the goddess athena, it was aphrodite,
Yes she was beautiful beyond all belief, her smile was also mighty.
She said hello Eric, and All I could do is stare in to her dreamy eyes,
She was beautiful, sexy, just a massive ray of sunshine, oh my oh my!
She said hello Eric, aren't you going to say hello back to me?
Im still at a loss for words, cause god has shown me this angel of beauty.
Hello I said, hello how are you, you must be the beautiful and lovely Kama Sutra,
She said yes I am, yes I am, All I could do is blush.
She said its very nice to meet you, she knew she had my mind gone, my heart jumping,
my whole body turning to mush.
She said in the spotlighted night sky that was nice to meet you I have to go.
We might meet again you will never know.
Thats when I I told her that She is Gods Most beautiful creation, and Gods most beautiful
creation deserves its second most beautiful creation this carnation rose.

Its Been Awhile Since I posted

Whats Up world. Its been awhile since I have writen in my blog. Its been awhile since the days I was torn by love. I have since tried to work it out, but that fell by the waist side. Now I am doing great. I have since moved on, accepted being single, and accepted coming home to no one. I have switched over from SDE to my new venture 24 Adult Entertainment. I have bought back my radio show and now host it with the very sexy, very funny, and very spontaneous D'Zire Moore. Sometimes I sit back and say its good to be me, then sometimes I lay back and say my life sucks. But hey nothing in life is glamorous or fair, but not that bad either.

I say this much though. I love My Family, I love the Gals of 24, I love my friends, and I love those who shown me love. The love that has been givin to me is what motivates me to stay positive and focused. To stay hungry to work through the bad and good. Now to understand that I have major purpose to do what I love. And due time God will present me with the lady I shall call Mrs Thorne.

So now I have picked up the peaces of what was broken and moved on to continue my journy for happiness, I will keep my online diary going. because I do have alot to share, Because like my New PA (Monique Banks), my life is open.

So as of late I have been trying to get myself better every since my break up. At time I face struggles which will make me slip and fall but there are certain things and people in my life I look to now to keep myself on track. Once I remember that there are people in my life who do appreciate me then I begin to understand that I must continue down my path of to obtain my full happiness. First of all I want to thank Ms Marcia Gilmore-Franklin who introduced me to this wonderful gospel group Shekinah Glory Ministries and this wonderful song they sing "Jesus". His song pretty much drains all the negativity inside my soul and replaces it with positive thoughts. I have posted the videos for your viewing pleasure.

Next I would also like to thank my family who I really realize loves me to death no matter what. For awhile I thought I was some kind of failure, dissapointment to them and felt shame. But they told me that they love me and they love me no matter what. To my family I love you very much.

Next I want to say thank you to a lady whom every time I talk to makes me feel good about myself, and lets me know I am not alone in this. She has been supporting, upliffting, and asuper lady just to hold conversation with. She assures me things will get better in time and does not judge me for being emotional because she knows that I am going through a hard time and am climbing out my hole slowly but surely. She understands and assures me that it will take time for me to heal and is standing by me to do so. I want to thank Star for being there for me 24/7. baby girl I do appreciate you, and I appreciate you very much.

Last but not least I want to say to all those people who have takin the time to write me, call me, message me, tweet me, or anything else to assure me that all will be ok, that all will be fine, that all wounds heal with time. I appreciate you very much. I now understand how many people have love for your boy and thats another reason why when I begin to fall back into my whole I think of your positive words and catch a hold of that wall and continue my climb upward. Strawberri, Tomeka, Platinum, LaChele, Roni, all the gals of SDE, Mz Booty, and Other ladies who spoke words of kindness you will always have a place in my heart. Mr. HollaOut, Bro you aare the best. Thanks for your awsome words. Hopefully I can now keep my eyes focused forward and keep the past away from me.

Losing myself slowly

Take a look at this photo. You would think that this was two people in everlasting love. How could something so right go so wrong so quick. Let me tell you people I wish I had the answer to that question. I wonder why sometimes god gives us these feelings of love. I mean it is a double edged sword. When the feelings are great (meaning love), you are on cloud nine, the day seems to be a lil bit brighter, problems seem to be non exsistant, everything seems to be OK. But when that love is turned with in, it seems to be like the world is on your shoulders, every negative in your life intensifies, other negative emotions seem to become greater. Ya know for the last month or so I have been getting alot of people telling me that I need to try to move on, or I need to try to forget, or I need to do something for myself, or just need to occupy my time to keep it off my mind. Well all that is easier said than done. I would love to just wipe all that away so I can start a new. But I am always reminded everyday about the Tattoo on my left shoulder that says "Her Name" on my arm. I am reminded everyday because I see her everyday online. I am reminded because everyday I see her as the background image on my XBOX 360. I am reminded everyday because I have several great memories of us. So just GETTING OVER IT is not a simple solution. Which now brings me to this, I use to be a very nice person, care for people, try to be a friend to those who need a shoulder to lean on, try to give benifit of the doubt to everyone, try to be full of laughter and not take things so serious, I tried to love and give my heart to one person. Now I am a bitter guy, does not give a shit about anything or anybody now. I quit trying to help those in need, I stopped smiling and laughing cause now I have nothing to smile or laugh about. Right now I do not care if I live or die. I am angry and heartless and really dont care. Why because my heart was crushed. Response from the public is that one person should not have that much control over myself. My response is that that person does because I became too loving and I gave my heart to her. Now I will be that person that I feared ever becoming. That angry old man on his porch in the rocking chair. Now for those who think its a "Pity Party" for myself it isn't. I have been hit hard and I have been hit very hard by this. I have no one to talk to and no one to vent to. My only outlet is my Social networks. I guess I just came to a point where my life is open now. I mean what the hell do I have to loose right? So I vent and I vent on facebook, and I vent on twitter, and I vent on myspace, and I vent on my blog. At least I feel a smidge better when I do vent. Lastly Because of this relationship's crash and burn I have lost alot of things about myself. I have lost happiness, self-confidence, my will, self-respect, motivation, pride, sanity, and well being. Once again this falls under the what someone says "letting someone have to much control over me". Why because no one should ever be able to strip me of those things. Well like I said when you truely care for someone and truely hold them close to your heart, and truely love them they will be able to have control. So people this is what is happening to me and this is something I wanted to share. So the next time I post on my social sites, for me its a way of letting go.

Madden Holiday (Happy Maddenoliday)

Its another year, and that means another year of Madden NFL. This years version, Madden NFL 2010, has finally made it. For those who do not know. Madden is a way of life. It is its own religion. People lose friends, jobs, money, and other stuff over this game. The franchise is highly competative and will cause you to be indoors all day when it first comes out. Most hardcore gamers get to the store at midnight to pick up their games to get an early start on the competetion. I admit it is a fun game and really causes me to not play most of the other games I have in my Stash. So to all my other Madden-Nites. Happy Madden Holliday. Football season is officially here.

The Road to My Happiness

Today I figured out the things in my life that will put me onto the road of happiness. I know for me in order to be happy I must start inward and work outward. First of all I must Love me. A lot of my friends have been telling me this for the last year and I have begun to realize what they mean. Second of all I must make changes in my life and discard all the negative vibes that surround me and surround myself with very positive things. Next I must do things that I love, Things that make me happy. I need to stop worring about what others say. Next when all the inside is done I will start with the outside and give myself a life make over. Last if I choose so I will find someone who will Love me and allow me to love them. To me this seems like a challenge because I am 36 years old and that my life is getting short. But with God's guidence and all my friends support I will succed. Let the pursuit of happiness began. This is the part that I call the "The New Begining".

Eric